slow down, you crazy child

today was a lazyyyyy day. I got up earlyish (8:00am....early for me) and then I went to breakfast with three amazing girls named Julie, Bridget, and Lolo. and we enjoyed yummy skillets and chatted because Lolo is leaving for college in a week. wahhhhh so sad! It's gonna be super weird next year to be the oldest and to not see all of my graduated buddies roaming the halls. I miss them already even though most of them haven't even left yet. I know that college will be amazing for them (hopefully), and I am really happy for everyone, but I'm also scared to let them go. I know I will see them again, but it's terrifying because nothing will ever be the same as it was. that sounds so dumb, but it's true. I guess change is good, but it is also scary and weird and takes a while to adjust to. and I just don't know if I'm ready. yet again, I feel like I want to go to college too. like right now. but then again, it's gonna be so so so hard next year to leave all of my friends. I mean I like to think that I'm pretty good at making new friends and everything, but what if I don't? what if for a week I don't know anyone and I'm sad. actually I don't think that will happen but what if it happens to one of my friends that's going to school this year? or to my friends that aren't as obnoxious as me. ok anyways...that's why I need to take advantage of my senior year and live it up with my friends while I still can. and just give different people a chance because I don't want to miss out on getting to know anyone before it's too late. so hopefully I can actually do some fun stuff this year and just have an amazing senior year with some great people. I feel like people tell such crazy stories from high school, but I haven't done anything super crazy to make an obscene story out of. I've had a lot of fun, but I think this year I can just let go a little and be less cautious. it's like I'm extending my YOLO summer into a YOLO senior year. I like that idea....YOLO seniors!! I mean YOLO is a super annoying term and I hate when people actually say it, but the idea of it is pretty cool. I read an article about it in seventeen magazine (that sounds ridiculous but I love that magazine), and it was a whole article about how people decided to stop second guessing themselves and just do it. hey! just like Nike!! but actually...I live my life so cautiously and it can get annoying. I am sick of being known as the girl who is super organized and put together and seemingly boring. I'm not saying I'm gonna go crazy and party or anything, but I want people to see me as someone who isn't afraid to have fun and to just love life! :) I'm gonna make an effort to relax more this year too ad don't worry about stupid school problems. ya I want to get good grades and stuff, but I need a breather. I'm actually taking classes that are interesting this year and I want to enjoy them! you're only young once so I want to have fun in high school. so for tonight's song I chose "Vienna" by Billy Joel. I used to be obsessed with it. it's basically just about remembering not to grow up so fast and to just enjoy every day of life and stop trying to rush forward. here it is.....

Vienna

Slow down, you crazy child
you're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you're so smart, tell me
Why are you still so afraid?

Where's the fire, what's the hurry about?
You'd better cool it off before you burn it out
You've got so much to do and
Only so many hours in a day

But you know that when the truth is told..
That you can get what you want or you get old
You're gonna kick off before you even
Get halfway through
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you?

Slow down, you're doing fine
You can't be everything you want to be
Before your time
Although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight
Tonight,...
Too bad but it's the life you lead
you're so ahead of yourself that you forgot what you need
Though you can see when you're wrong, you know
You can't always see when you're right. you're right

You've got your passion, you've got your pride
but don't you know that only fools are satisfied?
Dream on, but don't imagine they'll all come true
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you?

Slow down, you crazy child
and take the phone off the hook and disappear for awhile
it's all right, you can afford to lose a day or two
When will you realize,..Vienna waits for you?
And you know that when the truth is told
that you can get what you want or you can just get old
You're gonna kick off before you even get half through
Why don't you realize,. Vienna waits for you
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you? 


I just love this song because the lyrics are beautiful and wonderful. basically, Billy is telling us to slow down every once and awhile and appreciate the smaller things in life. sometimes we need to let loose and remember than not every single little thing matters all the time. even though that test might seem like a life or death situation....it probably won't matter 20 years from now. and there are certain things that you can only do when you you're young. eventually, things will either be socially unacceptable or we will be physically unable to do them. so while we are able and young and not adults....then do some outrageous stuff so that you can have a great story to tell your kids. :) there are so many songs about what it's like to be 17 and how it's the best age to go wild. and now 17 is finally upon me...so I guess I have to YOLO it up. ick that annoys me just to write it...but again, I guess what I am saying is that you should expect a new, more open version of myself for my senior year. 1) I will be very open to meeting to people....I'm sick of judging 2) I'm gonna try to let loose a little this year and just remember that Vienna waits for me....I'm still so so so young (a decade is more than half of my life! that's CRAZY!) so I think I should embrace my youth! 

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