HEY!! MERRY CHRISTMAS GUYS! (well sorta...it's like an hour past christmas but we can go along with it...) I am so happy to be blogging again. I know I always say this, but I really have been meaning to write. but I'm glad I waited because now I can talk all about Christmas along with the past few weeks. so there has unfortunately been quite a bit of crap thrown my way recently. however, there has also been an overwhelming amount of LOVE given to me. it's honestly been wonderful. so this post is all about LOVE everybody. el oh vee ee....love. love for my family, love for my friends, love for some cute boys, love for my neighbors, love for my puppy, love for my home, love for Jesus, love for those who need it most. just love. I just really love, LOVE. (I think maybe someone should count how many times that word love shows up in this post....I don't want to nor do I encourage it because I have no prize...I'm just curious) ok so anyways...the last few weeks have basically consisted of a lot of stressing about school and just being annoyed at having to be there. tests were piling up, and I adopted a sucky attitude about them. I was half ass studying (which is very unlike me) and I just felt mopey. then there was the shooting in Newtown. 26 beautiful lives were taken, and the nation went into a state of shock and remorse. I openly sobbed thinking about those who lost their lives, but also those who were affected but left behind. the families of the victims, the little children who were in the school and witnessed everything, any parents around the nation who are now afraid to send their child to school, a supposed safe haven. it was all a mess. then some crazy stuff when down with David. he pretty much lashed out at some people that I love, and I hated that I understood their pain and frustration but couldn't stop it. then he stopped speaking to me, and still isn't speaking to me. so all of that was just, for lack of a better word, shitty. because at this point, I am somewhat immune to what he says and does to me. it still hurts, but I understand it a lot more and can handle it. but to see him hurt other people and see them suffer just isn't okay. but again, I felt helpless because I couldn't just magically fix the situation. thankfully, these girls are so brave and smart and stood up for themselves before things could get even more out of hand. so you may be thinking to yourself...damn, this is a whole lot of crap. I thought that this blog was about love??? no need to worry!! because you are right; this post IS about love. so amongst all of this, some wonderful things also happened. I finally learned how to not be a coward, and I had a really great convo with someone I had been meaning to talk to for awhile. I listened to my own advice and realized that it was time to step up. and it paid off. I also realized that I have a pretty amazing support system. even though I was dealing with this stuff with David and it was bothering me, my friends were there to pick me up. it sounds dumb, but I really was amazed at the love that I witnessed. in the past few weeks, several people have reached out to me and have offered their love and support for me. even though I've known all along that I had my friends by my side, it's just kind of cool to have people actually come to you and hug you and say that they love you and will be there for you. I didn't even think that I needed that, but it turns out that I did. because once I recieved that love, I felt a whole lot better. speaking of love, I also had a precious christmas celebration with my girls. we decorated gingerbread houses, sang christmas songs, ate lots of candy, took pictures, drank hot cocoa, and just were happy. oh and we watched love actually. that's what gave me the idea to blog about love, actually. (LOL see what I did there?!) the movie is beautiful so I suggest you see it if you haven't yet! but pretty much, it follows a bunch of different love stories throughout the lives of very different people. it shows that love comes in all kinds of forms and everyone deserves it. oh and we made some beautiful snowflakes at lunch so that we could help create a winter wonderland for sandy hook elementary school. and people did that purely out of love. and with that, tonight's song is "All You Need Is Love" performed by John Lennon....here it is....
All You Need Is Love
Love, love, love.
Love, love, love.
Love, love, love.
There's nothing you can do that can't be done.
Nothing you can sing that can't be sung.
Nothing you can say but you can learn how to play the game.
It's easy.
Nothing you can make that can't be made.
No one you can save that can't be saved.
Nothing you can do but you can learn how to be you in time.
It's easy.
All you need is love.
All you need is love.
All you need is love, love.
Love is all you need.
All you need is love.
All you need is love.
All you need is love, love.Love is all you need.
Nothing you can know that isn't known.
Nothing you can see that isn't shown.
Nowhere you can be that isn't where you're meant to be.
It's easy.
All you need is love.
All you need is love.
All you need is love, love.
Love is all you need.
All you need is love (all together, now!)
All you need is love. (everybody!)
All you need is love, love.
Love is all you need (love is all you need).
Yee-hai!
Oh yeah!
She loves you, yeah yeah yeah.
She loves you, yeah yeah yeah.
so I could've chosen a million different songs for this post. there are just so many songs about love, and to be honest, I love them all. I had so many ideas. but for some reason, I kept coming back to this one. it is so simple, yet it's such a cool concept. "all you need is love". I wonder what to think about that saying. I almost wrote an entire college essay based on the prompt "All you need is love. True or false?" I read it and thought, "easy! true, of course! done." but when I tried to reason it out and write it down, I failed. over and over again. love comes in all forms, love can conquer all, love is like magic....all of these cliches kept popping up and eventually I just gave up. but because this is my blog and I could care less if this even makes sense or is creative or purposeful, I'm just going to address this because I can. so if you know me, which you should since you're reading this, then you really should be able to guess how I'd answer this question. I am usually an optimist, and like I said in the beginning of this blog, I really love, LOVE. but that's not the question. the question is whether it is all you need in life. I can make a list of a lot of other things that I need to survive besides love. a roof above my head, food, knowledge, etc. but the reason that I have all of this is because of the love that my parents have for me and my brother. I know that's a bit of a stretch, but it kind of is true. because my parents love us, they chose to raise us in a safe town that I have grown to love, they gave us shelter and food and clothing and all of the other necessities. however, I also know that sometimes even though parents love their children, they sinpy can't access these neccessities. and that's where this question gets to be tough. what if love isn't enough to keep you and your family alive? my hope is just that these people would have enough love to keep them satisfied so that if they did suffer, they would atleast have love from eachother to keep them strong. ok so this is kind of a jump, but I'd like to address a few more acts of love that I've witnessed recently. so last weekend I volunteered at a toy drive. going into it, I wasn't totally sure what I would be doing. when I got there, a sweet old lady showed me around in this emptied out store that was filled with tables of brand new kid's toys. she instructed me to grab a garbage bag and wait for the first person. I had no idea what was happening, then this mom came in and I was handed a sheet with two names on it. this woman had two kids, one 6 year old girl and a 3 year old boy. it finally made sense. as I walked her around the store and helped collect toys for her children, I could see her face just light up when she got to choose something that she knew her daughter would like. this same pattern continued for hours, as more and more people, all from around my town, came in to get their children christmas presents. the best was when we gave away a brand new pink and purple bike, complete with the streamers on the handle bars and a bell too! I remember how happy I was when I got my purple bike for my birthday. this mother was near tears as she told us how excited her daughter was going to be. another lady told me how her daughter had asked her why poorer families like her own don't get as many presents from santa. that broke my heart. but these parents still love their kids so much, and that was amazing. and basically I just had another wonderful christmas. my family has a lot of weird but awesome traditions, like our annual game of Sorry! where someone usually ends up crying (usually it's me....) BUT THIS YEAR NO TEARS WERE SHED! WOO! I just feel incredibly blessed to have so many people that love me so much. not everyone has that, and even though I do complain about them, my family is pretty great. I know that in David's case, he was lacking a bit of love, and that's made him very bitter. so I'll keep offering it to him as a friend and maybe one day he'll accept it again. it was weird that this was my first christmas in a few years without him, and I did miss him, but I am also really happy for new blessings this year with many more to come. so to answer that question, I'm gonna have to agree with Lennon on this one and argue that all you really do need is love. love love love.
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