the rest is still unwritten

hi babes. sorry if you are a dude...can you call a dude a "babe"? I don't know...I'm just trying to be creative. well first, did you miss me?!?! lolololololololol just kidding of course you did(n't)!! (you either did or you didn't....either way I am not offended). ok anyways....so I hope ya'll had a kick ass Friday! I know I sure did! but before I get to Friday, we can start with my Thursday. so the day sorta started out sad because my friend called me bright and early and she told me that we could no longer go to her lakehouse because our other friend had a sick family member in the hospital!! :( so we couldn't go but I just felt awful for her because the poor girl had to be in a hospital all day instead of feeling loved by her besties. so during the day I did a bunch of super boring mommy jobs and went to the library and got some books and then on my way home I stopped at Jill's house because I just had to and I love her home. so I went inside since she had nothing to do all day, and we just chatted for a longggg time and it was wonderful. I love her. BUT it was okay because at night we had a sassy heels and skinny jeans girls night (literally my favorite thing of all time!) and the two sweethearts (Pax and Betsy) + me + julie went to dinner and the four of us had a ball. ugh I just love them all and we then made our way to tro sno because of course we would have to do that since we live there. (I DIDN'T GO TODAY AHHHH) and so we went and the workers were hitting on Jules hardcore even though she won't admit it and we got our tro sno and talked to da boyzzzz and then went back to Betsy's house to drop off my sleepover stuff woooo! so we got some straws cause Julie always jokes that tro sno needs them. so we may or may not have given the tro sno boyz our numbers in the box of straws.....#YOLOSUMMERHAYYYYY! so ya we felt super cool and then we strutted through town in our heels because why not? and Paxton wore cheeta pants...did you hear me? CHEETA PANTS people!!! ya. amazing. and we belted some mumford and call me maybe and felt awesome. so then we cuddled on Betsy's couch and watched countless episodes of Friends and Four Weddings and Project Runway (Tim Gunn kills me!!!) and we just died of laughter and may or may not have consumed like  1,000 chocolates. but honestly we had a blast and Paxton had to leave which was so sad, but we group texted eachother a million times so I felt like she was still there with us the whole night. wow I just wish I could sit with these girls and have countless heart to hearts with them over and over again because they are that special. that sounds so so so stupid but it is actually true because they are that cool and mean that much to me!!!! so ya then we just passed out on Betsy's super comfy carpeted floor and it was lovely! so that was my Thursday...I LOVE MY LIFE. I probably sound super spoiled, and I honestly am. God has blessed me so much with these amazing people and experiences. but just when you thought it couldn't get better...it does. because today was unreal. so today Jill and my friend Veronica and I went to my brother's girlfriend/ex-girlfriend (it is very confusing)'s lakehouse. 1) her family is freaking amazing and so sweet and ahhhhh! 2) the house itself is unreal and beautiful and breath-taking 3) the three of us were so comfortable together all day and just had the gigs and laughed our asses off 4) the weather was 100% ideal 5) we went on the paddle boats (is that what you call them? I can't remember....) it's like a giant surfboard that you paddle around on using a paddle.... 6) we went tubing which was great and Veronica and I nearly died because it was super duper choppy! even Jilly went on the tubes yo!! 7) we made bracelets and Jill finished one all by hersel errebody. it's a big deal 8) we ate a lot of food...but it was semi healthy so thats good 9) we took our swimsuits off while in the lake and joined the "club" (I renewed my membership...don't ask) and we got to engrave this wooden fish 10) I took countless pictures and soaked in the sun and it was so wonderful. 11) I actually could just go to 100 naming things that were amazing about today. but we just all felt at peace. it was calming and serene and I can kind of still feel the swaying of the boat. wow. so I honestly would live there if I could because it is simply fantastic (I wish I had a better adjective than that) also on the way home we blasted the most random songs on Veronica's throw back CDs, and we sang some of them in spanish because why not?! so one of the ones we sang in espanol (that means spanish for those of you who may speak German or something else...) was "Unwritten" by Natasha Beningfield....here it is YO...

UNWRITTEN

I am unwritten
Can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning
The pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
That you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin

No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

I break tradition
Sometimes my tries are outside the lines
We've been conditioned
To not make mistakes, but I can't live that way, no

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
That you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin

No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips

Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
That you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin

No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
alright so this is bascially the corniest song ever but every girl would be lying if they said that they didn't enjoy belting this like a ridiclous fool. because we ALL DO! it is super uplifting and enjoyable. it makes me feel so happy to think about rain drops on my skin or that sunshine beaming on a beautiful day at the lake. you know that adjective that I was looking for earlier to describe the whole lake experience? well I think this entire song just about sums not only that up but also my lovely outing on Thursday with the fab four. it just is empowering and it one of those songs that again screams, HEY!! stick up for yourself! be confident. WERK or WURK. and just be open to the idea of a fresh start too. because hey, in actuality, 10 years is over half of the length of my entire life. how sad/amazing is that?! I honestly know nothing in the grand scheme of things and I have so much time to make life different. so although it sucks to admit how little I actually am, it is lovely to remind yourself that you can just kinda start over when you want and just embrace a new life if you want to. you have the power to be anyone you want to be. that sounds idiotic but really think about it. you can do it if you so choose and the fact that we have that opportunity is such a cool thing. but again....only God knows what the future holds and the rest is still unwritten. so try not to worry so much. you've got so many people on your side and the big guy upstairs too. life is not gonna be perfect at all, but if you constantly worry about it, there is no way that you can happy. worrying is the worst. I worry a LOT. I am working on calming the "freak out" inside of me, but sometimes that monster comes back and I am crazy obsessed with my future and what's gonna happen and if I'm gonna be a failure. but then I realize that that isn't gonna change anything at all. it's only going to make me absolutely crazy. so moral of this blog....1) remember to breathe and relax and go with the flow. 2) be confident and write your own story. 3) DON'T WORRY SO MUCH! I saw this picture once and it said, "Don't worry so much, my child. Remember, I got this! love, God." it helps me to think about that sometimes when I am discouraged. I also just want to give a speical little shoutout to my best friend Abby because she is going away to Young Life camp and I encourage everyone to pray for her and for everyone going to camp. they will need a lot of love as they learn about themselves and grow in their relationships with Christ. pray that Abby can grow too and be happy and be strong and an inspiration to others. I LOVE HER. <3 thanks! and I'm OUT.

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